.she is.
Though she is a material girl, she is also a plain jane. She may be a party animal. But all she wants, is to be loved and cared.
.past.
Though she is a material girl, she is also a plain jane. She may be a party animal. But all she wants, is to be loved and cared.
.shout.
Tuesday, 18 December 2007 1:12 am
While trying to fight the sleepy monster, I was debating with myself whether to do it or not. In the end, I still did. But, I don't think I should expect any kind of response. Still as confused as ever. I think I will be, even till the day I leave Singapore.
Sometimes it pains me to see how I had become so different from my friends. I think it is just me, and I keep asking myself why had I become a person like I am today. All that pretence under the thick makeup, who am I trying to impress? I do enjoy the attention I am given, but sometimes I really hate myself for that.
I don't know why I had this thought, but I wondered if my ex-boyfriend(s) was/were to see the way I am now, would they have regretted leaving me, or would they feel a sense of relief? Luckily this crazy bitch/slut is no longer my girlfriend.
No, I did not do anything unforgivable or something sorry to myself. But I can't help but keep thinking who I really am and what kind of person I am.
Sometimes it pains me to see how I had become so different from my friends. I think it is just me, and I keep asking myself why had I become a person like I am today. All that pretence under the thick makeup, who am I trying to impress? I do enjoy the attention I am given, but sometimes I really hate myself for that.
I don't know why I had this thought, but I wondered if my ex-boyfriend(s) was/were to see the way I am now, would they have regretted leaving me, or would they feel a sense of relief? Luckily this crazy bitch/slut is no longer my girlfriend.
No, I did not do anything unforgivable or something sorry to myself. But I can't help but keep thinking who I really am and what kind of person I am.