.she is.
Though she is a material girl, she is also a plain jane. She may be a party animal. But all she wants, is to be loved and cared.
.past.
Though she is a material girl, she is also a plain jane. She may be a party animal. But all she wants, is to be loved and cared.
.shout.
Sunday, 21 March 2004 11:02 pm
(Sorry, my thoughts are rather messy now, all over the place...whatever I say has no link...confused)
I was reading zj's blog and many things, emotions went through me...
He talked about how the test will come when he goes NS and the fear of straying...I thought of myself...We started while he just entered NS, and that he will be going away alot for overseas training in the future...We are not like them, started in school days, where they get to see each other almost everyday, establish a strong bond between them...I can say that our relationship went through "hardship", the very difficult period...Not that I am not confident in our relationship, but shouldn't we worry more about each other straying? But sometimes I think that it may be good we started at that time, the times we spent apart makes us treasure each other more...
There is so many things going through me now, I don't even know how to state them down, too overwhelmed by emotions, I guess...I think the problem lies with me, I expected too much out of a relationship (maybe)...it what ways I don't know how to say it...I want a glamorous relationship, I want my ideal kind of relationship, which is impossible to achieve in reality...I live in an unreal world, where everything is perfect...
Sometimes this relationship seems like a dream to me, seems "fake"...is like: did this thing really happen to me? How did this happen? Is it true we are together? I don't know is it good or bad...
He called me just know, and said somethings...today is his last book in, n he wanted to thank me for enduring through the past 2,3 months while he was inside..life had been difficult for the both of us, but I guess it is less for me...
I was reading zj's blog and many things, emotions went through me...
He talked about how the test will come when he goes NS and the fear of straying...I thought of myself...We started while he just entered NS, and that he will be going away alot for overseas training in the future...We are not like them, started in school days, where they get to see each other almost everyday, establish a strong bond between them...I can say that our relationship went through "hardship", the very difficult period...Not that I am not confident in our relationship, but shouldn't we worry more about each other straying? But sometimes I think that it may be good we started at that time, the times we spent apart makes us treasure each other more...
There is so many things going through me now, I don't even know how to state them down, too overwhelmed by emotions, I guess...I think the problem lies with me, I expected too much out of a relationship (maybe)...it what ways I don't know how to say it...I want a glamorous relationship, I want my ideal kind of relationship, which is impossible to achieve in reality...I live in an unreal world, where everything is perfect...
Sometimes this relationship seems like a dream to me, seems "fake"...is like: did this thing really happen to me? How did this happen? Is it true we are together? I don't know is it good or bad...
He called me just know, and said somethings...today is his last book in, n he wanted to thank me for enduring through the past 2,3 months while he was inside..life had been difficult for the both of us, but I guess it is less for me...