Sunday, 14 March 2004 10:41 pm
				Feeling really down this week...in fact it started since the beginning of this week.  I think I am really not enjoying myself at work, not because of the people and the job, but I just don't enjoy it.  I loathe the life I am leading now.  I feel like locking myself at home for a week, maybe go out occasionally for facials, gyms, classes and go to the beach for a walk.  I am going to resign this friday.  I don't care, too sick of my life.  I need a break I guess...
Probably another thing is the relationship.  I told girl and char today that sometimes I think that we shouldn't have started in the first place.  But to them, they probably think I am the most xin fu one among them.  They don't see a problem, but to me, I think there is, at least the problem is me.  Happiness is relative.  If you ask me if I feel xin fu, in a sense yes, I know how much I am being loved, but no, cause I think it is so one-sided.  
I don't know why I keep finding fault in myself.  Singlehood may be the best after all, like wat my sisters say.  I think I should really take some time off and really re-sort out my life again, balance up my relationship and stuffs like that.
I need a break...