Feeling really down this week...in fact it started since the beginning of this week. I think I am really not enjoying myself at work, not because of the people and the job, but I just don't enjoy it. I loathe the life I am leading now. I feel like locking myself at home for a week, maybe go out occasionally for facials, gyms, classes and go to the beach for a walk. I am going to resign this friday. I don't care, too sick of my life. I need a break I guess...
Probably another thing is the relationship. I told girl and char today that sometimes I think that we shouldn't have started in the first place. But to them, they probably think I am the most xin fu one among them. They don't see a problem, but to me, I think there is, at least the problem is me. Happiness is relative. If you ask me if I feel xin fu, in a sense yes, I know how much I am being loved, but no, cause I think it is so one-sided.
I don't know why I keep finding fault in myself. Singlehood may be the best after all, like wat my sisters say. I think I should really take some time off and really re-sort out my life again, balance up my relationship and stuffs like that.
I need a break...