.she is.
Though she is a material girl, she is also a plain jane. She may be a party animal. But all she wants, is to be loved and cared.
.past.
Though she is a material girl, she is also a plain jane. She may be a party animal. But all she wants, is to be loved and cared.
.shout.
Sunday, 22 February 2004 9:17 pm
I will never want to send him off again, I hate that feeling.
Yesterday went shopping with girl, char and the 2 guys. Bought alot of things, from mango, m)phosis, pepperplus. Bought so many things that he forbid me from buying anymore (or even look at it). Both guys were so sian (poor things), cause to them, they rarely have the chance to book out and spend time with us. And yet yesterday the 3 of us were happily shopping and neglected them. Yesterday I still didn't feel so bad. Is today when I met him to spend some time together, and it wasn't long, before he book in. When I saw him off, I really didn't felt like letting him go (just like the last time), and later on the mrt I felt bad, as in I (really) regretted no spending them with him yesterday. I realise how short the weekend is, even though he booked out on friday night. I didn't cherish the what little time we had. I can say this is the second thing in my life that I really regretted, even to the point I almost cried. I didn't tell him I felt really bad, just told him I regretted. He don't know (and wouldn't know, cause I will nv tell him) how sad I really felt. But then, circumstances didn't allow us to. Sometimes I feel it may be better if we started earlier, maybe in school days, or just after the exams.
And although I am with him, sometimes I feel insecure. I am those typical little girl that needs to depend on somebody, give me the security and things like that. But nv once he held my hand (which will make me feel secured, like someone is protecting me). He don't dare, I guess, after all I am his first. And sometimes, this kind of things needs both parties to be ready. I hope during night hike he will, cause I am quite scared in the dark, scared to fall down and things like that. I am like that, if there is someone I can depend on, I will totally depend on him to protect me. I like the feeling of being protected (or rather I need to be protected).
The past week was horrible, no phone calls, no sms from him. At some point in time, I wondered who is he, he didn't felt like my bf, sometimes I felt unattached, no feelings for him. But today, it just prove to myself how much he matter to me (and how much I matter to him too).
Miss you and love you....
Yesterday went shopping with girl, char and the 2 guys. Bought alot of things, from mango, m)phosis, pepperplus. Bought so many things that he forbid me from buying anymore (or even look at it). Both guys were so sian (poor things), cause to them, they rarely have the chance to book out and spend time with us. And yet yesterday the 3 of us were happily shopping and neglected them. Yesterday I still didn't feel so bad. Is today when I met him to spend some time together, and it wasn't long, before he book in. When I saw him off, I really didn't felt like letting him go (just like the last time), and later on the mrt I felt bad, as in I (really) regretted no spending them with him yesterday. I realise how short the weekend is, even though he booked out on friday night. I didn't cherish the what little time we had. I can say this is the second thing in my life that I really regretted, even to the point I almost cried. I didn't tell him I felt really bad, just told him I regretted. He don't know (and wouldn't know, cause I will nv tell him) how sad I really felt. But then, circumstances didn't allow us to. Sometimes I feel it may be better if we started earlier, maybe in school days, or just after the exams.
And although I am with him, sometimes I feel insecure. I am those typical little girl that needs to depend on somebody, give me the security and things like that. But nv once he held my hand (which will make me feel secured, like someone is protecting me). He don't dare, I guess, after all I am his first. And sometimes, this kind of things needs both parties to be ready. I hope during night hike he will, cause I am quite scared in the dark, scared to fall down and things like that. I am like that, if there is someone I can depend on, I will totally depend on him to protect me. I like the feeling of being protected (or rather I need to be protected).
The past week was horrible, no phone calls, no sms from him. At some point in time, I wondered who is he, he didn't felt like my bf, sometimes I felt unattached, no feelings for him. But today, it just prove to myself how much he matter to me (and how much I matter to him too).
Miss you and love you....