.she is.
Though she is a material girl, she is also a plain jane. She may be a party animal. But all she wants, is to be loved and cared.
.past.
Though she is a material girl, she is also a plain jane. She may be a party animal. But all she wants, is to be loved and cared.
.shout.
Sunday, 25 January 2004 10:44 pm
Yesterday night we finally sit down and talk. Actually he wanted to ask the question, but the ambiance wasn't correct. Though I am not those that care about flowers, ambiance and things, he felt that whatever extra he can give me, he will give it to me, since that is alot he cannot. He wanted to buy a bouquet of flowers for me, but seems that he is down on his luck, can't find one. And apparently all that went for the dinner know about it, they came to see show one, cause carrying flower is not something that can hide. I feel quite relieve that he didn't manage to get it, coz I think it is quite embarrasing, since the juniors are around too, including her...
After what I heard he told me, I actually have no feelings...He told me he went to many shops in order to get me flowers, but I didn't feel touch, which I guess any girl will. Sometimes I think it hurts his ego...but I really don't feel anything. Told this to zj, he told me this: "i think is u wait till over tired liao... go take a rest liao. the next time u c him... well, maybe u realise something's different... or... maybe when u both start to hold hands... its different. r/n need both parties to maintain. its needs efforts. as wat many always says, the initial puppy love will wither in a few years or (months for some. haha), and it is up to the parties to hold on..."...although it may seem something simple, nothing big, but it did straighten my tots alittle...
Sometimes I feel that after all, I am the one that is not ready to start a new relationship, although can say that I look forward to one. Suddenly there is another person in your life that you have to consider. This is something that I cannot accept overnight. I guess even after he ask I still need some time to think over it, and be prepared for the changes that will come along...Through this, I realise though I know very clearly what I want in a relationship, I am still like someone dating for the first time, many things I don't know, need to seek help. But luckily, there are people around me that can provide me with directions, at least I don't feel so lost...
You can say that our relationship start already, but just not officially. But it is more like "one-sided thing", he treats me like his gf, but I treat him not totally like my bf yet. Maybe I should do more, like zj say, it needs both parties to maintain...
That night at the dinner, I heard from my sisters that jh did ask sy whether she still like him, she say dunno. But as a girl, I also know the meaning of dunno. Jh did tell her what is going on though, she needs to know, I guess. But I think this is not enough, I think he owe her an explanation or at least go talk to her. Sometimes I feel that he a little dui bu qi her. I did ask him about her, and he know that I will ask. He did tell me something, but after all, this matter doesn't involve me, I don't know whatever feelings is put in by both, but I just hope he will go talk to her...think it is fairer this way...
Today, went on shopping spree with hw and char..I bought alot of things, spent over 100...but it is great...bought many things I like..so happy...
After what I heard he told me, I actually have no feelings...He told me he went to many shops in order to get me flowers, but I didn't feel touch, which I guess any girl will. Sometimes I think it hurts his ego...but I really don't feel anything. Told this to zj, he told me this: "i think is u wait till over tired liao... go take a rest liao. the next time u c him... well, maybe u realise something's different... or... maybe when u both start to hold hands... its different. r/n need both parties to maintain. its needs efforts. as wat many always says, the initial puppy love will wither in a few years or (months for some. haha), and it is up to the parties to hold on..."...although it may seem something simple, nothing big, but it did straighten my tots alittle...
Sometimes I feel that after all, I am the one that is not ready to start a new relationship, although can say that I look forward to one. Suddenly there is another person in your life that you have to consider. This is something that I cannot accept overnight. I guess even after he ask I still need some time to think over it, and be prepared for the changes that will come along...Through this, I realise though I know very clearly what I want in a relationship, I am still like someone dating for the first time, many things I don't know, need to seek help. But luckily, there are people around me that can provide me with directions, at least I don't feel so lost...
You can say that our relationship start already, but just not officially. But it is more like "one-sided thing", he treats me like his gf, but I treat him not totally like my bf yet. Maybe I should do more, like zj say, it needs both parties to maintain...
That night at the dinner, I heard from my sisters that jh did ask sy whether she still like him, she say dunno. But as a girl, I also know the meaning of dunno. Jh did tell her what is going on though, she needs to know, I guess. But I think this is not enough, I think he owe her an explanation or at least go talk to her. Sometimes I feel that he a little dui bu qi her. I did ask him about her, and he know that I will ask. He did tell me something, but after all, this matter doesn't involve me, I don't know whatever feelings is put in by both, but I just hope he will go talk to her...think it is fairer this way...
Today, went on shopping spree with hw and char..I bought alot of things, spent over 100...but it is great...bought many things I like..so happy...